here are a couple of visual essays showing what happened to my beautiful daughter,
~*Vylette Moon*~
gone too soon!
11.28.11 - 12.03.11
Her life was wrongfully taken by the disgusting negligence of midwifes Asya Portnaya and Yuliya Milshteyn & doula London King of
The Brooklyn Birthing Center, in NYC.
My mission is to get JUSTICE for VYLETTE. to never allow these 'midwives' to be anywhere near precious new life and pregnant women & to have this careless center SHUT DOWN.
thanks to Megan for making these videos in memory of her!
VYLETTE's STORY
my absolutely perfect baby from my perfect pregnancy died directly due to the severe negligence of my midwives ASYA PORTNAYA & YULIYA MILSHTEYN of The Brooklyn Birthing Center (http://www.brooklynbirthingcenter.com/ ). also doula London King ( http://www.pushlove.com/ ).
they delayed me for hours so much so that my baby was trapped in my birth canal and suffered lack of oxygen to her brain. they did not believe me when i told them my contractions were 2 min apart for HOURS. my doula was paid specifically doc one to my house to monitor me and tell me when to go in. but she failed me as well. they told me i was fine not in enough pain to go in. they said i could still talk so i wasn't in pain. i told them i was vomiting. they said no need for concern.
it was thanksgiving weekend and no one wanted to break their vacation to deal with me. i wanted the most natural spiritual birth i could give my child but instead got the complete opposite. finally i told them i was coming in. i arrived fully dilated pushed for an hour. she broke my water and noticed meconium from distress. baby wanted to come out for hours but because of the delay she was panicking inside of me. there was definitely a good heartbeat. they made me stop pushing for 15 minutes! made me walk when i could feel her head between my legs even made me walk down the stairs instead of letting the EMTs put me on a stretcher! i listened cuz i was freaking out and had to trust them..
i arrived at the hospital and finally got to push. it was so hard to work against my own body.. sometimes i pushed cuz i couldn't hold it.. i wish i would have just pushed her out. shed be ok. i get to the hospitals and they're screaming at me to push saying I'm not working hard enough.. i struggle and scream.. the midwife spreads me open with two hands. no warning. i start screaming. a woman i don't know runs in the room and sticks her hand in too so i have 4 hands plying my pussy open. I'm groaning wildly... finally they cut me vagina open like they should have long ago and baby flies out stiff. no cries. gray complexion. no cries. they smash my stomach brutally to get the placenta out. i screaming.. 12 doctors swarm around baby trying to get her heart to start.. she's rushed out of the room. i feel like death. I'm freaking. I'm sent to my room.. i finally get to see her. its bad. she looks like she's sedated but she just isn't moving. they resuscitated her and she's on a ventilator. she's hooked up to 12 machines in a huge room of her own.. the rest of the babies in the NICU are in another room. every orifice has a wire a tube a needle in it. they poke and prod her every 30 min to adjust her glucose. machines administer drugs to keep her heart rate up.. they keep her on a special cooling table that lowers her body temp to slow down her metabolism for three days. after 3 days they do a brain scan. zero brain activity.
i had a perfect pregnancy did everything right. all her tests and mine perfect. they killed her. they took away her spark. she had tiny movements that improved over a few days so we thought there may be hope. after the brain scan i had to decide when to turn the machines off. i saw that her body and soul were finally at peace. i knew it was time. she was so beautiful, so perfect that doctors cried when they saw her. the priest cried. they could all see how rosy pink her skin was.. how supple her soil, how pretty her features.. they were so sad. the nurses would dress her up in little accessories.
her name is Vylette Moon and though she was here for such a short time she was very loved by all who saw her. except the midwives.. they never spoke to me again. stopped all contact and ran me in circles when i tried to obtain my medical records they are evil.
i was supposed to birth at the Brooklyn birthing centerthe midwives were ASYA PORTNAYA and YULIYA MILSHTEYN. i believe they are currently still delivering babies. it makes me so sick. i had to watch my child die in my arms. she would be 2 months and 1 week right now.
my house is full of things i so carefully selected and requested for her. I'm so devastated and will always be. my boyfriend and i dont get along very well now, we're so far apart and at times, i feel so completely alone. its been very hard but i am strong.. or at least i try to be. its all been doctors, lawyers, paperwork, funeral homes, collecting her remains.. etc. all by myself. its so hard. it gets worse every day i feel deeper and deeper agony of not having her.. everything is hell. my family is devastated. ughhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!
please visit my Facebook page JUSTICE FOR VYLETTE. read the story and view the photo albums. see what i had to live. LIKE and SHARE it with as many people as you can. Help give Vylette the voice she was not allowed to have! please raise awareness. i don't want this to ever happen to anyone else ever again! after this happened they washed their hands of me, said it was all in the hospital's hands now and never offered me any type of grievance or support. https://www.facebook.com/pages/Justice-for-Vylette/304080562960839
This is absolutely horrifying. I'm so Sorry you went through this. My daughter dies of sids at 34 days old. That was hard enough. My prayers are with you. Being a mother losing a baby, I know that You can get through and over come this.
ReplyDeleteI also had a midwife through my dr.s office I did not want her but had no choice. I did not like!e her from the start she let me stay I lAbor for 17 hours and that was hard labor I thought I was going to die. With my 2nd child she had just went home when she got called back for me well she was going to send me home when I was 5cm diolated I refused and my son was born 30 minutes later where we lived we would never have made it back they are not all trained to do their jobs and I am so sorry for your loss I will pray that your hearts get some ease.
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ReplyDeleteOh dear fellow mama......my heart breaks for you. I am so sorry that your little one is not in your arms right now. Blessings on your heart. God bless your beautiful Vylette.
ReplyDeleteI am so, so sorry for the loss of your baby. Vylette is so beautiful. You both deserved better.
ReplyDeleteI am so sorry, my heart is aching for you. I just wanted to tell you giving your baby the voice, is doing what you can. I don't think everyone will understand that. I would feel I let my child down, and this would be so hard for me to carry. But you know what? That's not true, you didn't let Vylette down.
ReplyDeleteI am a Christian, I believe that you will see your daughter again some day. I am so sorry though because right now that's just not enough, not by any stretch. Reading this story I can't help but step in your shoes in a tiny way and it would just devastate me, I can't imagine your pain. I hope it's okay if I pray for you, to both get justice, and also for your Mama's heart. I know that's not much, but I feel helpless.
Have you read LizP's story? Have you read the hurtbyhomebirth.blogspot.com blog? You both definitely deserved better. I am so sorry.
Absolutely heartbreaking. I am so sorry for your loss and the trauma you've been through.
ReplyDeleteI think that CERTIFIED NURSE midwives can be valuable during birth, as these practioners see their labor patients in hospitals and have regulated medical training.
seriously...nobody except a real dr should be delivering a baby...and this right here is why...
DeleteThis story is absolutely terrible, but not all midwives are like this. I had nurse midwives for my delivery at the hospital and I wouldn't choose anyone else to deliver my baby. They were absolutely amazing.
DeleteMy nephew had a similar birth outcome - he was delivered by an OBGYN. I'm very sorry for your loss, I wouldn't wish this experience on my worst enemy.
DeleteI am disgusted at how awful these midwives are! Your daughter Deserves justuce!!! I'm sooo sorry for your loss and can't even imagine what you are going through. You are in my prayers and your beautiful daughter is in heaven with the angels. This is so heart breaking and I am sorry that you had to experience this.
ReplyDeleteI think of you daily J. <3 and hugs.
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Life in a Restored Paradise
Loss our little ones is so unbearable only a mother who has had, a loss of this little ones life an future could understand I have had 2 losses please let me comfort you in what I found of what the future holds for you. Soon you will see your baby again the Bible says that God the Creator of the Heavens and the earth will give us back our dead loved one in a World Wide Resurrection, The tombs will be open and the sea will give out those dead in them you will be able to hold your baby again and nurture her and teach her about life please feel free to contact me or JW.org for more information. My heart is with you.
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ReplyDeletewas the location of the birth,
because I ignored the doctors,
Vylette is not on this earth,
it's impossible to bear,
that my ignorance took his life,
so I must place the blame,
on the hired help,
the midwife."
Please tell me you seriously aren't trying to blame this poor woman for the blatant ignorance of the medical team that she had for the death of her little girl? In that situation you have no choice but to trust what these "trained professionals" tell you. Its not her fault, it is theirs. My mother gave birth at a great hospital and yet I still almost didn't make it due to the ignorance and stubbornness of an I'll trained midwife, so don't you cars blame this poor mother for this horrible situation.
DeleteAgreed. You have to be able to trust what your caregiver tells you. I chose to have all 5 of my babies at home. With midwives. And when I called them repeatedly for false labor, they still showed up within 10 minutes ready to roll. Because they loved me and my unborn babies. Mom is in no way to blame for wanting an amazing experience. And a quality midwife would have delivered that experience. Bless Vylette's sweet heart.
DeleteAgreed. You have to be able to trust what your caregiver tells you. I chose to have all 5 of my babies at home. With midwives. And when I called them repeatedly for false labor, they still showed up within 10 minutes ready to roll. Because they loved me and my unborn babies. Mom is in no way to blame for wanting an amazing experience. And a quality midwife would have delivered that experience. Bless Vylette's sweet heart.
DeleteYour a sick person for even trying to blame the mother. You must not be A mother or father you asshole. This women lost her first child regardless the midwifes did not do there job she ask to go to the hospital and was denied by these people. Matter of fact your prob one of the women who did this to this family. Loss of a child is a terrible experience. I'm so sorry for the loss of your child... justice for vylette xoxoxox I shared your story
DeleteI am so so SO sorry this happened to you. Omg this is horrible. I came across your blog by doing research on Brooklyn Birthing Center. This is crazy and now I feel safer going elsewhere. Nothing can bring a life back and its disgusting what they did to your baby and what they put you through. It's 4 years later. I hope you got the justice you, your bf, and your baby deserve!
ReplyDeleteI hope those horrible people get what they deserve. Your precious baby should be alive today, but you're right....they killed her. My heart aches for you.
ReplyDeleteI know its been a few years now and I am just now seeing this. I just want you to know that I am very sorry for what you and your husband had gone thru I pray that you have moved on and have started a family again. May God bless you and your family. I just became a Grandmother for the first time and I'm 57 years old I couldn't wait until this day.
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I am truly sorry for your loss. I have had a similar experience. I had a son who had all the same machines hooked up to him and was on a cooling pad for three days to help swelling in the brain go down. He was unfortunate as well. I held him as his heart stopped beating. This was 7 years ago this coming January. I know the pain never goes away. I now have a 1 yr old son and feel joy again. I hope and pray that you can feel the same some day if not already. Life is truly a blessing and to give life is a miracle, I hope you get your miracle.
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Jesus christ, there aren't words.
ReplyDeleteMy heart bleeds for you. I can feel your pain through the photos and words you so bravley shared.
I have been scared of birth complications everytime I have been pregnant, and the fact that these fears have come true for you is horrifying. These people need to answer for this completley preventable tragedy. How these 3 "women" (and I use that term lightly) can live with themselves, I will never understand.
I hope your beautiful Vylette flies high and watches over you. You are so strong, so amazing. I send you every strength I have to help you fight this battle.
You will get justice for your perfect baby girl. The world is an unfair, cruel and cold place, but Vylette is light, warmth and hope. Her memory will help you through untill you see her again.
Sooooo much love to you ��
I'm so very sorry for the loss of your baby girl!! As a mother of 3,I couldn't even imagine the pain and heart ache you've been through.
ReplyDeleteI know its been some time now,I want to know if these fools are still working,has your baby and you gotten any form of justice yet?? I pray that they loose their license to deliver any more babies!! God bless you!!
So sorry that you had to experience this. I too lost my little boy to the negligence of a health care practitioner. They had me pushing for over 4 hours and in the end my little boy starved of oxygen and died after 20 minutes of being born. It pains me to know that all it would have taken was a little blood sample during those hours and he may still be with me. 11 years it has taken me to find a way to live with the massive hole in my heart, i still struggle, and its not easy. I hope you find some comfort knowing you are not alone as for me this wasn't a spoken subject in the early days and i wish i had someone to comfort me back then. My love and thoughts are with you xxx
ReplyDeleteI've been sobbing in my office as I read this story on FB. May your beautiful baby girl RIP. You are one strong lady. I am thinking of you! No one should ever have to go through what you went through.
ReplyDeleteHas there been any progress in the case with the lawyers or against the center?
ReplyDeleteI can't even imagine. I can literally feel the pain from your face in the photos. You're so strong.
ReplyDeleteI can't even imagine. I can literally feel the pain from your face in the photos. You're so strong.
ReplyDeleteim so sorry for your lost this is horrible i know nothing i say will make you feel better but if theres anything i can do im here . im with you and i understand every little pain your feeling .
ReplyDeleteI just came upon your page and your devastating experience. I wasn't sure if commenting 7 years after the fact would be welcomed or hurtful but I felt compelled to tell you how your story touched me. After reading about your beautiful baby girl, I am reminded that we often take successful, uneventful pregnancies, labors and deliveries for granted. I worked as a nurse in the newborn nursery for 6 years. I was shocked to see how some nurses were so dismissive of laboring women's complaints. It only takes a moment to check to see what's happening or what's not happening. A reassured mama is a calm, in-control mama. An informed mama is more relaxed making labor/deliver more tolerable. I'm so sorry you didn't receive the beautiful tender experience you and Vylette deserved. I have no idea how you're doing now but I pray you have discovered a measure of comfort and strength to celebrate Vylette♡
ReplyDeleteI'm 10 yrs late reading this but your experience echoes what our family went through 1/1/2022. Our 17 yr old daughter lost her sweet baby boy due to placental abruption at 22 weeks gestation. I understand that abruptions are often fatal for the baby but they didn't try one single thing to save the pregnancy or Zaylin. He was born alive but passed within 15 minutes. My heart ached as I watched the doctor and staff ignore him. He tried to breathe so hard and moved his tiny arms. They didn't wrap him or turn the warmer on. The doctor never even looked at him again. Then they failed to submit his birth certificate papers. They charted that he was stillborn but I counted his heart rate immediately at birth... 134 beats per minute. Even if their protocol is to not resuscitate at 22 weeks, they could have at least told us. They also gave our daughter CYTOTEC as soon as we arrived. It's not FDA approved and we only discovered it a week later as we read the documentation in the patient portal. The doctor charted in multiple places that our daughter was 20 weeks gestation and other notes were correct at 22 weeks. They charted that we received extensive education while there but we were not told anything! At our daughter's follow up visit the doctor insisted multiple times that she start on birth control immediately. She never said one word about Zaylin or what we went through. Our daughter is now 16 weeks pregnant but this baby won't eliminate the pain, grief or trauma of losing Zaylin.
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