Autumnal Woe... ~22 Months~ My Love Forever

i was baking and cleaning all night... and wishing i was feeding cake to Vylette. i know shed love it then run around and get all crazy after the warm spicey sugar rushhh  :)  i feel her around me running into Gradma's room.. always snuggling with Grandma or under the covers with Daddy on chilly days.

Where oh where is She though? the cake is getting cold...

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somedays i dont want to do alot of thinking,

so ill do a lot of baking

or my hands will keep crocheting

to keep my heart from aching...

cant say that i really go out much

i hardly ever keep in touch

the mental anguish and the rush

chokes up the broken heart i clutch

so ill just stay here and hide

with my daughter's ashes by my side

and ill have the perfect time,

if even only in my mind.

around my feet i feel you running

i see you jumping, see you walking

under Autumn leaves just turning

i miss you love you sweetly

my darling you do complete me

without you, im hurting deeply

i once saw you held you 

i just wish i could have kept you

around for always

im withering my leaves are falling

my colors fading my eyes so distant

clouded aging

who ever thought that procreating 

would be such an Undertaking.