i wanted a child so much today,
but then i wished that thought away...
i wondered why my eyes were not wet
then realized i remembered to forget
the feeling that haunts me deep inside
i am a mom so filled with pride
but when the day is done
and the sun is set
my arms are cold
and my pillow's wet.
i want a little mini me
the way things were supposed to be...
my cheeks still can smile
though the world let me down..
heart feels empty
and my spirit frowns...